Well, I've been trying not to sucumb in this depression but things are so difficult. I'm so tire of having Pen-Husbands. You know, the pen-pals but instead of pals I have a tendencie of marry them and then be apart from my husbands.
Is it that I ask too much? I mean, does romance really excist? I hate so much the romantic movies where they show how the girl suffer because has a cruch in a man and he doesn't notice her and wham!, one day he notice her an then he sweep her off her feet. I love so much my husband but how can I keep a relationship from so far away if he doesn't show a sign of interest? I know that he's busy. That usually he works over 16 hours per day. But how long it takes to send a note via e-mail or leave an IM in the messanger even if I'm not online.
I just want to cry and cry. I feel so lost, so abandone.
People keep saying that I'm beautiful, that I'm a very good person, that I'm talented; but what does it means? All I see around my life is dissapointment, pain and people interested in me for one purpose (most of the time because I'm American).
I'm sorry but this is one of those days that only death seem so sweet...
I have no joy in life lately and nobody seems to notice and do something about it.
Well, at least I can write here all I want, anyway nobody reads...
